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Just Thinkin'...
« on: July 05, 2019, 11:21:51 AM »
I'm just sitting here, drinking coffee, reminiscing.

Today would've been my Dad's 86th birthday. He passed back in 2014. He was a great guy; perfectly imperfect but not a soul didn't like him. He was a Navy Vet who served in the Korean War on board the USS Oriskany (CV-34). He joined the New York State Police after he got out of the Navy but left that job when he and my Mom got married.

The man could drive anything with wheels. After he left the State Troopers, he spent 28 years as a driver for Esso/Exxon. He was named Exxon's "driver of the year" in the early 1990's after amassing over 1,000,000 accident free miles. I still have that award. He was a gun enthusiast and he loved jazz. He was a volunteer fireman on Long Island for the better part of 25 years, rising to the rank of Captain in his company. He was an avid boater and loved being on the water. Taking after my Grandfather, my Dad loved to cook breakfast for his sons anytime we visited. He was always upbeat and positive, even when he had overwhelming reasons not to be.

The last time I saw him, he was in the hospital in upstate New York. His days were numbered, and he was well aware of it. My brother, Dad and I sat in the room for a silent few moments when my Dad said something that, quite literally, changed everything about how I now approach life.

He was lying in bed with tubes and needles running here and there. He looked down at them, looked at my brother and then at me, and said "Hey, it could be worse..."

I was stunned. The man had a buffet of cancers which were going to kill him. There was no getting away from that inescapable fact. JP was going to die, and he was going to die soon. I thought "What in the Hell could be worse than this??"

But Dad was philosophical. "Hey, it could be worse" he said. "I could have a toothache."

"Oh my God, he's right."

Everything he was going through and dealing with would've been infinitely worse if he'd had a toothache.

It's funny how seemingly little things and thoughts and ideas can have such a profound impact.

Anyway, I was just sitting here, drinking coffee and thinking about Dad... with a great big smile on my face...
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #1 on: July 05, 2019, 11:46:42 AM »
great story, sounds like he was a great man, his legacy lives through you. hope you have a great day and thx for sharing
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #2 on: July 05, 2019, 01:55:14 PM »
Yes, very touching ... thank you for sharing
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #3 on: July 05, 2019, 04:13:54 PM »
You obviously loved your Dad in life. Now you have made it possible for others to love him after his death. Good job, Shutterbug - Dad would be proud!
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #4 on: July 05, 2019, 11:34:16 PM »
Wow!  I read your Dad's story, and my Dad's story is nearly the same!

Not sure if you were looking for others to share "Dad stories" like yours in this thread, and I'm certainly not trying to hijack it; but I'll share mine with the group as well...

My father served in the Marines during the Korean War. He went in at Inchon, and became one of the Chosin Few.  My father had never finished high school but was, nevertheless, intelligent and had great common sense (two attributes I like to think I inherited from him).  He also seemed to have that Irish charm that immediately endeared him to all that he met.  Sadly, I did not seem to inherit that trait...  :(  Like your father, mine was a gun enthusiast as well -- to the point where he moonlighted as a gunsmith.  Many evenings he sat in our basement, with me at his side to hand him tools, tinkering with someone's pistol or rifle...

At a later stage, he'd given me a Marlin Model 57M that had no stock and a broken firing pin in it -- the latter of which was about as hard to find as a hen's tooth for some reason.  Together, we set about finding the replacement part -- which ended up taking several years.  My Dad was also fond of doing the finishing work on the stocks (as well as refinishing old furniture) and decided to dress up this run-of-the-mill Marlin with a Circassian walnut stock; a friend of his did some light wood engraving & checkering on the stock and my Dad put the finish on it.  Once the firing pin was finally in our hands, the rifle was reassembled and test fired -- successfully, I might add!

My father passed away in June 2016 after a battle with cancer (melanoma). Like you, I carry fond memories of him, but our last hurrah came a week before the 100th running of the Indianapolis 500 race -- which turned out to be three weeks to the day before he died...

I had made arrangements to take him to the track at Indy to participate in a Pace Car reunion that was being held a week prior to the race. A friend of mine was going to have two Corvette Pace Car editions at the reunion (a 1998 and a 2007), and I thought the trip would help to lift my dad's spirits, since he'd always been a big fan of the race. It did -- especially when we got to drive around the track with the rest of the pace cars (my friend let us pilot his '07).

By May of 2016, I had been working back in Waco, TX once again, and flew home to Pittsburgh (commercial flight) for a little more than a long weekend (because we were in the midst of a flight test program) in order to take my Dad to Indianapolis.  I had seen him only a month or so before, at Easter; but could see that the cancer was taking a heavy toll on my father.  But he was still eager to head to Indy, so we set off.  As we sat watching some of the cars doing their qualification laps, I couldn't help but think to myself, "Is this the last thing I'll ever do with my father...?"  I drove my father back to Pittsburgh the following day, and the day after that was on a commercial flight back to Texas.

Two and a half weeks later, my brother called me and told me the doctors had only given our Dad days to live.  First thing the next morning I was pulling my little Cherokee out of its hangar, praying that the gimpy battery would give me two good starts (I had to make a fuel stop in Tennessee) so I could get to Pittsburgh before he passed.  At about 8 PM that evening, my Dad and I set eyes on each other for the final time; the cancer had progressed to the point where he could no longer speak, and my siblings had had the nursing staff delay his pain medication so he'd be awake and cogent when I finally got to the hospital room.  When I came in, one of my sisters told him, "Tim's here!" and he perked up enough to look at me and nod a greeting.  I spoke to him briefly before the nurse administered his pain medication, and he slipped off to sleep.  He was gone by 8 AM the next morning...

The only solace I could take from it (besides getting there in time to see him before he passed) was that my siblings related to me how, after returning from Indy, our Dad would corner anyone who would listen and tell them about his trip to Indianapolis Motor Speedway -- and how great of a time he'd had...

We all returned to our childhood house in which our Dad had still lived (Mom had passed away in 2014) and decided to honor him by sharing his favorite cookout meal:  steak and a baked potato.  My brothers and I also decided to lower the flag in the front yard to half-staff -- which could only be done by literally taking the flag pole out of the ground, moving the flag lower on the pole, then returning the pole to its hole.  On the first try, my sister captured the event (see attached photo) -- which we all agreed was a fitting tribute to a former Marine...
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #5 on: July 06, 2019, 12:01:22 AM »
Wow!  I read your Dad's story, and my Dad's story is nearly the same!

Not sure if you were looking for others to share "Dad stories" like yours in this thread, and I'm certainly not trying to hijack it; but I'll share mine with the group as well...

My father served in the Marines during the Korean War. He went in at Inchon, and became one of the Chosin Few.  My father had never finished high school but was, nevertheless, intelligent and had great common sense (two attributes I like to think I inherited from him).  He also seemed to have that Irish charm that immediately endeared him to all that he met.  Sadly, I did not seem to inherit that trait...  :(  Like your father, mine was a gun enthusiast as well -- to the point where he moonlighted as a gunsmith.  Many evenings he sat in our basement, with me at his side to hand him tools, tinkering with someone's pistol or rifle...

At a later stage, he'd given me a Marlin Model 57M that had no stock and a broken firing pin in it -- the latter of which was about as hard to find as a hen's tooth for some reason.  Together, we set about finding the replacement part -- which ended up taking several years.  My Dad was also fond of doing the finishing work on the stocks (as well as refinishing old furniture) and decided to dress up this run-of-the-mill Marlin with a Circassian walnut stock; a friend of his did some light wood engraving & checkering on the stock and my Dad put the finish on it.  Once the firing pin was finally in our hands, the rifle was reassembled and test fired -- successfully, I might add!

My father passed away in June 2016 after a battle with cancer (melanoma). Like you, I carry fond memories of him, but our last hurrah came a week before the 100th running of the Indianapolis 500 race -- which turned out to be three weeks to the day before he died...

I had made arrangements to take him to the track at Indy to participate in a Pace Car reunion that was being held a week prior to the race. A friend of mine was going to have two Corvette Pace Car editions at the reunion (a 1998 and a 2007), and I thought the trip would help to lift my dad's spirits, since he'd always been a big fan of the race. It did -- especially when we got to drive around the track with the rest of the pace cars (my friend let us pilot his '07).

By May of 2016, I had been working back in Waco, TX once again, and flew home to Pittsburgh (commercial flight) for a little more than a long weekend (because we were in the midst of a flight test program) in order to take my Dad to Indianapolis.  I had seen him only a month or so before, at Easter; but could see that the cancer was taking a heavy toll on my father.  But he was still eager to head to Indy, so we set off.  As we sat watching some of the cars doing their qualification laps, I couldn't help but think to myself, "Is this the last thing I'll ever do with my father...?"  I drove my father back to Pittsburgh the following day, and the day after that was on a commercial flight back to Texas.

Two and a half weeks later, my brother called me and told me the doctors had only given our Dad days to live.  First thing the next morning I was pulling my little Cherokee out of its hangar, praying that the gimpy battery would give me two good starts (I had to make a fuel stop in Tennessee) so I could get to Pittsburgh before he passed.  At about 8 PM that evening, my Dad and I set eyes on each other for the final time; the cancer had progressed to the point where he could no longer speak, and my siblings had had the nursing staff delay his pain medication so he'd be awake and cogent when I finally got to the hospital room.  When I came in, one of my sisters told him, "Tim's here!" and he perked up enough to look at me and nod a greeting.  I spoke to him briefly before the nurse administered his pain medication, and he slipped off to sleep.  He was gone by 8 AM the next morning...

The only solace I could take from it (besides getting there in time to see him before he passed) was that my siblings related to me how, after returning from Indy, our Dad would corner anyone who would listen and tell them about his trip to Indianapolis Motor Speedway -- and how great of a time he'd had...

We all returned to our childhood house in which our Dad had still lived (Mom had passed away in 2014) and decided to honor him by sharing his favorite cookout meal:  steak and a baked potato.  My brothers and I also decided to lower the flag in the front yard to half-staff -- which could only be done by literally taking the flag pole out of the ground, moving the flag lower on the pole, then returning the pole to its hole.  On the first try, my sister captured the event (see attached photo) -- which we all agreed was a fitting tribute to a former Marine...

wow, also a great story. happy to hear you got to spend time with him and see him before he passed.
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2019 BTO GC 12 fret - cedar/cocobolo
2019 sheeran w03 - cedar/santos rosewood
2019 lowden s35 12 fret - driftwood cedar/cocobolo
2020 lowden s35 12 fret alpine spruce/madagascar
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #6 on: July 06, 2019, 12:12:46 AM »
Wow!  I read your Dad's story, and my Dad's story is nearly the same!

Not sure if you were looking for others to share "Dad stories" like yours in this thread, and I'm certainly not trying to hijack it; but I'll share mine with the group as well...

My father served in the Marines during the Korean War. He went in at Inchon, and became one of the Chosin Few.  My father had never finished high school but was, nevertheless, intelligent and had great common sense (two attributes I like to think I inherited from him).  He also seemed to have that Irish charm that immediately endeared him to all that he met.  Sadly, I did not seem to inherit that trait...  :(  Like your father, mine was a gun enthusiast as well -- to the point where he moonlighted as a gunsmith.  Many evenings he sat in our basement, with me at his side to hand him tools, tinkering with someone's pistol or rifle...

At a later stage, he'd given me a Marlin Model 57M that had no stock and a broken firing pin in it -- the latter of which was about as hard to find as a hen's tooth for some reason.  Together, we set about finding the replacement part -- which ended up taking several years.  My Dad was also fond of doing the finishing work on the stocks (as well as refinishing old furniture) and decided to dress up this run-of-the-mill Marlin with a Circassian walnut stock; a friend of his did some light wood engraving & checkering on the stock and my Dad put the finish on it.  Once the firing pin was finally in our hands, the rifle was reassembled and test fired -- successfully, I might add!

My father passed away in June 2016 after a battle with cancer (melanoma). Like you, I carry fond memories of him, but our last hurrah came a week before the 100th running of the Indianapolis 500 race -- which turned out to be three weeks to the day before he died...

I had made arrangements to take him to the track at Indy to participate in a Pace Car reunion that was being held a week prior to the race. A friend of mine was going to have two Corvette Pace Car editions at the reunion (a 1998 and a 2007), and I thought the trip would help to lift my dad's spirits, since he'd always been a big fan of the race. It did -- especially when we got to drive around the track with the rest of the pace cars (my friend let us pilot his '07).

By May of 2016, I had been working back in Waco, TX once again, and flew home to Pittsburgh (commercial flight) for a little more than a long weekend (because we were in the midst of a flight test program) in order to take my Dad to Indianapolis.  I had seen him only a month or so before, at Easter; but could see that the cancer was taking a heavy toll on my father.  But he was still eager to head to Indy, so we set off.  As we sat watching some of the cars doing their qualification laps, I couldn't help but think to myself, "Is this the last thing I'll ever do with my father...?"  I drove my father back to Pittsburgh the following day, and the day after that was on a commercial flight back to Texas.

Two and a half weeks later, my brother called me and told me the doctors had only given our Dad days to live.  First thing the next morning I was pulling my little Cherokee out of its hangar, praying that the gimpy battery would give me two good starts (I had to make a fuel stop in Tennessee) so I could get to Pittsburgh before he passed.  At about 8 PM that evening, my Dad and I set eyes on each other for the final time; the cancer had progressed to the point where he could no longer speak, and my siblings had had the nursing staff delay his pain medication so he'd be awake and cogent when I finally got to the hospital room.  When I came in, one of my sisters told him, "Tim's here!" and he perked up enough to look at me and nod a greeting.  I spoke to him briefly before the nurse administered his pain medication, and he slipped off to sleep.  He was gone by 8 AM the next morning...

The only solace I could take from it (besides getting there in time to see him before he passed) was that my siblings related to me how, after returning from Indy, our Dad would corner anyone who would listen and tell them about his trip to Indianapolis Motor Speedway -- and how great of a time he'd had...

We all returned to our childhood house in which our Dad had still lived (Mom had passed away in 2014) and decided to honor him by sharing his favorite cookout meal:  steak and a baked potato.  My brothers and I also decided to lower the flag in the front yard to half-staff -- which could only be done by literally taking the flag pole out of the ground, moving the flag lower on the pole, then returning the pole to its hole.  On the first try, my sister captured the event (see attached photo) -- which we all agreed was a fitting tribute to a former Marine...

wow, also a great story. happy to hear you got to spend time with him and see him before he passed.

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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #7 on: July 06, 2019, 11:50:18 AM »
Not sure if you were looking for others to share "Dad stories" like yours in this thread...

Well, it certainly wasn't my intention, but I'm glad you shared yours!
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #8 on: July 09, 2019, 01:17:42 PM »
Shutterbug, thanks for the wonderful story.  People like your dad are heroes of mine. I was adopted from South Korea, and know very well that if it hadn't been for the US and her soldiers, NK could have easily captured SK...and hence I wouldn't be in this wonderful country now.

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« Reply #9 on: July 09, 2019, 09:08:45 PM »
Today would've been my Dad's 86th birthday. He passed back in 2014. He was a great guy; perfectly imperfect but not a soul didn't like him. He was a Navy Vet who served in the Korean War on board the USS Oriskany (CV-34).

My dad was on the USS Ticonderoga (CV-14) from 1954-56, so he just missed action in Korea.  You story has touched me, as dad passed away the night before my birthday in 2006.  He would be 90 this December.  Fortunately I had made a business trip from Alaska to Minneapolis and a side trip to southern Michigan and got to spend time with him three weeks before he passed -- suddenly from a massive heart attack.  The last time I saw him was at the airport rental car return lot, and I gave him a sincere and proper Navy salute from across the parking lot, then had to catch the shuttle bus for the terminal.

At the funeral, I expressed how if I did everything right in life, I might someday be half the man he was.  I can honestly say that my only major regret in life is not spending more time with him (a complicated family story).  So thanks for bringing up the memories.....   ;)
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Re: Just Thinkin'...
« Reply #10 on: July 09, 2019, 10:57:07 PM »
I can honestly say that my only major regret in life is not spending more time with him (a complicated family story).

Hey, I'm right there with ya'.

My Dad and I were estranged for a stretch. In those roughly ten years I spoke to him only a handful of times.

While that remains my life's greatest regret, my greatest thankfulness is that we repaired our relationship, wholly and completely, many years before he passed.

Not sure if that echos your own story, but I know what it's like to not talk to your father, and I know how much better and fulfilling it is when you do...
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« Reply #11 on: July 10, 2019, 01:25:07 PM »
Actually I got along fabulously with dad.  I just never got to spend enough time with him.  Mom however did not like me much - I won't go as far as saying hate - but she sure got in the way.  I was a real troublesome black sheep, being the first person on either side of the family to graduate from college since the Civil War, and yet she would not let the family attend my graduation as an engineer from Michigan Tech after driving ~600 miles to be there.  'Nuff said.
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« Reply #12 on: September 20, 2019, 04:31:51 AM »
In the life of your father, they must make a film, for his term he has done really a lot. I would like to meet him in person.

Most of our men’s term is short, it’s sad, we live brightly and quickly fade away. It is good that his last days were surrounded by loving people, I am sure that it was important to him.  :-[